In Awe

I am sitting on the porch with an absolutely amazing view of the mountains veiled with fog. There is a blue hue across the whole sky and it is absolutely peaceful. The last few weeks have been super stressful for me. Sitting here right now makes me feel like I can finally breathe again. I can finally feel the stress lifting from my body and I am grateful for it (even if will only last for a short time). Thank you, God for this morning.
I am in complete awe of your creativity. The earth has so many elements to it and each one was specifically designed by you. I forget sometimes to thank you for the wonderful things you have done in my life. I spend more time wondering why you aren’t doing things in my life when in reality, you are doing SO much in my life. This is the first year in a long time I have been able to tell myself I am beautiful. With the help of Rachel and with your love I have slowly been able to see myself the way you see me. You look past the heavy Claire most people judge. You look into my heart and see me for who I am. You forgive me when I make mistakes…this is another thing I struggle greatly with. I make mistakes and slam myself for it, but you take me back each time. I know this is going to sound like a “duh” statement, but you love me no matter what. I have to remind myself of that. You love me when I am angry with you. You love me even when I hurt you. Your love is unconditional and you will never reject me or turn away from me. What an amazing father you are.